The Change.

Since I had been rather horrible lately, I am going to change.
Turn over a new leaf probably.
I had been letting too many people down lately.
I had been too immature.
So, I guess I'm going for a change.

If you can see through this.

Next.

J's poem. I can't resist to post this.

School leads to boredom,
Boredom leads to depression,
Depression leads to suicide,
Suicide leads to death,
Death leads to depression in parents,
In the end,
Everyone regrets.

I wonder what will happen when teacher sees this.

My Poem.

I looked up at the clear blue sky,
Only to see birds flying free,
I only wanted to escape this,
All of a sudden,
I yearn for a hug,
There you were,
Standing a few feet away from me,
I did not stop to think,
I just ran towards you,
Only to be melted in your embrace.

My favourite.

Happy Birthday.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, SYARA DARLING.

I'd been thinking about your birthday post lately.

And, I figured that I should write sixteen things on you.

Although, the next thing that's going to happen is my sister coming to me and saying it was her idea.

*The one who was there for me since Standard 1.
*The one who got into trouble with me. =) I'm sure you remember. Shhh.
*The one who knows everything about me.
*The one who is cuter then I am.
*The one who was in cheerleading in Form 1. 
*The one who joined St.John's with me but quit later on. I still wished you were in. =)
*The one who had many people crushing on her. =)
*The one who loves someone with almost the same name as mine. *winks*
*The one who is loud and noisy all the time. You never seem to be emo, right?
*The one who had the third Siberian cat in Malaysia. Wheee..
*The one who gave me Elmer baby which I treated like gold.
*The one who wants to be a music producer and had wrote many songs. I love 1,2,3,4,5 Chances.
*The one who should be in Alpha. You should come back.
*The one who has lovely Comic Sans handwriting. I love your handwriting.
*The one who loves pink and black. I know that's your signature colour combination.
*The one who loves to have salmon with bread. Omg. haha.

The list of sixteen things about you.

I miss you, Syarafina.
Oh my, I forgot one more thing.

Can I add to your list?



The one who had a creative side. Unlike me.

So, here's to you.










Once again, Happy Birthday.
Can't wait for Sunday. =)

Shirtliff.

For the first time in my life, I felt happy today. Genuinely happy today.
And, for the first time, I felt bersemangat-ed for Shirtliff.
I managed to pass the high jump today.  =)
Don't ask me how did I jump because I swear that I honestly don't know how.
It's just that I will automatically jump when I reach there. I know I'm weird.
Oh, I remembered the word.
I AM PROUD OF SHIRTLIFF AND MYSELF FOR NOT BEING USELESS. =)

Michelle, I know you don't love me as much as you love D. Boo. *sigh*
ItdoesnotmatterifIgetcupcakesornot.

I'm beginning to love RED.


 

You Found Me.

You found me
When no one else was looking
How did you know just where I would be?
Yeah, you broke through
All of my confusion
The ups and the downs
And you still didn't leave
I guess that you saw what nobody could see
You found me

Everyone, please drop everything you are doing. And, listen to this.

You Found Me by Kelly Clarkson

It reminds me of someone. Guess?

Red.

I went out as soon as I woke up this morning.

Look what I got.
It's so pretty.

Butterfly. Only not purple.



The vase. It was cut out from red paper.
Omg.





The flower.
It's so beautiful, don't you think?

I miss you so much.

Why me?

Why wouldn't you ever let me be what I want to be?
Why aren't you proud of me?
Why can't you be like others?
Why can't you ever appreciate what I'm doing?
Why can't you ever understand me?
Is it really that hard?
Why me?
Can't you even pretend that I am important to you?
I'd rather you pretend.
I'm sick of all this. 

I know I'm not supposed to live my life this way, J.
I'm sorry.
Sometimes, I just lose it.

The title of this post is so significant and typical of someone I know. 

Chinese New Year-Last Day

It's not exactly the last day of Chinese New Year but it is the last day of celebrating it for me.
I never wanted it to end.

I went out the whole day today. Open houses again.
I played with Nicholas and Michelle’s PS2. Spongebob Squarepants. Danny Phantom.
Oh, I feel like a little child again.
I came back at 12 midnight. And, I felt sick.
It was probably because I slept at 2 am the night before and woke up at 10 am.
8 hours of sleep is definitely not enough for me.

Conclusion
This had been my best Chinese New Year so far.
I will definitely miss everything especially the fact that:

1. I should not allow my emotions to get affected by others.
2. I should quit being whiny and motherly especially.
3. I should be a more caring person like W. =)
4. I should really stop daydreaming. I daydream too much.

And what comes out of me from this Chinese New Year is a whole new Kah Wai.
Who will try not to be in love with anyone for at least this year.

There are some things that you should never see,
I’ll just lock myself in there,
The only place where my tears could flow freely,
For the secret I will never tell.

I don’t even know why I wrote this. It’s probably how I really feel.

I'm going to forget you. Goodbye, memories.