Tuesday 29 September 2009

Dawn of Doom.

Don't you know that the more you push me down, I'm gonna be more defiant?

I'm not going to curse, and no I'm not going to break.
I'm going to rub it in right in your face that I'm not trash.
Who cares if you don't bother about my achievements?
The truth is, I'm not your little angel anymore. Yes, I'm rude and selfish, so what right?

the physical journey that i traverse
is the journey of the soul,
transport of the self from a fatherland
to a country collected by sight and mind.
the knowledge the sweats from it
is estranger's experience,
from one who had learnt to see, reflect
and choose between
the challenging actualities.

its true i have growled at my mother and
but only after having told them my predicament
that they have never brought to consideration
the wife that i began to love in my loneliness,
in the country that alienated me,
they enveloped in their pre-judgement.
i have not entirely returned, i know,
having been changed by time and place.
coarsed by problems
estranged by absence.

I've learnt
the ways of the rude,
to hold actuality in a new logic,
debate with hard and loud facts.
but i too
have humanity, respecting
man and life.

I am me,

I am not who you want me to be.

Tuesday 22 September 2009

Wedding Reception. 19.09.09

Behold the wedding reception pictures.
Bukit Jalil Golf & Country Resort.

Agnes and Raymond. I'm there too. WOOT.
She has a tiara. =)

Annie and I. Richard's girlfriend who just came back from Singapore.
We're at the registration table. Talk about awesomeness. =)

I love this picture. It's like perfect. =)

Mom and cousins. =)
Cousins. =)

My eldest cousin. She's so pretty right?

The bride and I. I like her dress. Okay, I love all evening dresses. =)

Not exactly party, reception is the word.

My lil' hot brother. *evil laughs*

Monday 21 September 2009

Holy Matrimony of Raymond Lim and Agnes Ho .

Love is very patient and kind,

Never jealous or envious,

Never boastful or proud,

Never haughty or selfish or rude.

Love does not keep a record of wrongs,

Love is not happy with evil,

But is happy with the truth.

Love never gives up;

Its faith, hope and patience never fail.

Love is eternal.

The power of love, indeed. Yes, if you were wondering, it’s finally the day I had been waiting for. I couldn’t sleep last night because I was either too nervous or too stressed. To which I don’t even know why because I wasn’t even the one getting married.

First Church Wedding.

Agnes and I. I really love her dress. So awesome.

The wedding entourage

The wedding booklet.

Wai Yee and I. The two bridesmaid.

You know, I had a really funny feeling when I was walking down the aisle. Everyone was looking, some envious, some happy, some tired. I didn’t know there were so many procedures for a church wedding. But, everything was perfect. The atmosphere, the people and the positive vibes in the church. But, I really pity the bride. She told me that her earrings and hairdo were heavy and they were hurting her. The amount of pins were uncountable. A huge stack of them. OMG.

We came back around 4 pm. I was so tired. I just washed all the hairspray out of my rock-like hair. It was so painful. Imagine trying to soften something extremely hard. I slept for what seems like 5 minutes but in reality, it was actually an hour. I had to go to the restaurant a little earlier than the rest since I am the bridesmaid. I reached and went into the bride’s changing room. I helped to put on her jewelleries and then I went out to the registration table. It was so much fun to sit there and assign the guests to their respective tables. Annie and I were really busy basically, but it was my first time doing it. The dinner started and the food was really good. But, I enjoyed the company the most. Juicy gossips were literally flying across the table. Everyone was joking and laughing, it was really long since we last did that. As you all know,

I ‘m closer to my dad’s relatives compared to my mom’s. It’s been ages since I had real fun.

But, yesterday was exceptional. =) To top it all up, I would say that 19 September had been one of the greatest days I had so far.

Credits would go to KAH MUN a.k.a K.

The Wedding Dinner will be posted soon. =)

Friday 18 September 2009

Part of It.


Tomorrow's going to be good. I can't wait to see them.
Oh, I'm NOT your oh-so-nice cousin. Waiting anxiously to see your face.
I'm just waiting to see how you're gonna dim in my Sun. Woot.

I'm so mean. But,wait. Think again. Who provoked this? Who destroyed everything?
None other than you. =)

This will be my first time, and maybe my only time. It will be a memorable day.

Love is not selfish or rude.
What God had joined, man must not divide.

How awesome. If only everyone lived that way.

Wish me luck. I don't wanna trip and fall while walking down the aisle. How embarassing. I gotta help to decorate the church for the wedding in half an hour time. =) I love being a bridesmaid.

Wednesday 16 September 2009

One of those days.

Undo this.

You know, it's kinda rude and mean what Kanye West did to Taylor Swift. And, he's not even that popular. I have more Taylor Swift's songs compared to his. He's being a plain sour grape, going up the stage and snatching Taylor away from probably one of the proudest moment of her life. Can you imagine that happening to you? What's the point of apologizing after what you done anyway? The damage is done.

Look, he was snatching it away from her.


YOU know what, stop quarrelling and have misunderstandings. It's tearing us apart. Really. I can't believe this is happening. Unfortunately, this is life. How naive of me.


Omg, I so need the CKIn2U range. It smells so good. Really. I'm so going to force my future boyfriend to use it. I'll apologize in advance. =)

Don't it look so lovely?

Saturday 12 September 2009

Whirlwind of Emotions.

Warning: This post is definitely going to make you upset and dejected. So, I recommend that you don't read it if you are in an extremely pleasant mood today. -KahWai-

You feel as if everyone is against you. You try to convince yourself that people are probably not in a good mood. You happened to be be there, just at the wrong time. Anger directed at you. But, so what? If only I could take it that way. I feel so useless. Lying around all day, wasting precious time. Having nothing but memories of happier times when I was part of it. At times, I actually think I have an awesome life. However, at times, I feel as if someone threw me down the building, stabbed me with a knife and then threw me into the drain. It's a little gruesome, mind you, I ain't sadistic.

I slept and I woke up. But, I still felt it in me. This melancholic feeling. Overpowering every single happy cell in my body. It dawned upon me that the epiphany I had been having all week was true. It wasn't my fault, it was basically everything around me. When one closes the door, I just walk away pretending I'm happy. The truth is, I'm not. I was dying to scream and tell you that I'm not okay. But, I didn't have the heart to do so, of course. What if everyone left one by one? I don't know.

I don't need teddy bears or chocolates. I need something. Something solid and real. I don't want it to end.

Thanks, K. For listening as I complain for an hour while you're trying to study.
I regret never listening to you when you needed my help.

Damn, I feel so evil.

Friday 11 September 2009

As promised.

Indulge. Sounds wrong, man. Nevermind.

Credits Tharine for the pictures. =)
More to come, waiting for Princess S.

Thursday 10 September 2009


And so, we sang.

All the races coming together as one. It's actually a sight to behold. Capture it and put it in your heart. Forever, it remains. I'm glad we made it through. Although the planning were a teeny-weeny last minute, we managed to put on a good show, didn't we?
However, I did crash a class full of half dressed people. I didn't realise, seriously.
D and KM screamed. Then, I was like "oh, shit, screwed." And, I had to stand outside our class with both of them. Best part, I was wearing cheongsam with black socks and shoes. My heels were in class and I didn't manage to take it out. I was like "oh, crap". Damnnn.

Anyway, it's kinda hard to sit in cheongsam. The slits are freaking high. I have to use Val's shawl. Thanks VAL. =) Damn. It would never see daylight anymore. Pictures later, I need to grab it from syara, tharine and derrick.

"Here in my home, I'll tell you what it's all about"

Saturday 5 September 2009


It's highly unusual. Especially when you sensed it coming your way only to have failure rushing faster to you than the speed of light.

I like that *points up* What do you think?
After ten years from now, I'll be the world's best philosopher. All hail me.

Right, dream on, little girl. You know, today was weird. Effin' weird. Wait, have any of you ever wondered why didn't God created us with humans and robots characteristics at the same time?
Because I must be thinking so much about food. I thought that food was actually a waste
because you eat it then it proceeds for digestion and then it's expelled from your body.
I know, all the nutrients are absorbed into our body but if you don't think of it that way, food would be a waste. Okay, I get it. I'm crapping. But I'd been thinking this for long. Like since a few months ago. I'm just being curious.

By the way, I'm so addicted to dogs. I know that it can't be an addiction but don't you find them adorable? With their pleading eyes, begging you to touch their soft fur. I swear that I would get a dog in the future. Definitely a maltese. 100%. Maybe a poodle. But, I have to send it to the pet grooming centre rather frequently to trim the fur.

Aren't I adorable?

I wonder, how can people eat dogs in China. Inhumane act, don't you think?
Here in Malaysia, they abuse dogs. What's wrong with the world?
I can't help but wonder if mankind had lost all compassion whatsoever for these helpless creatures.

Thursday 3 September 2009


The worst thing that can ever happen is to remember one line from a song but have the rest of the tune stuck in your head for the whole day. And, that's exactly what happened to me.

If any of you were in choir in primary school, do you still remember the title of the song we sang about some pahlawan? I'm sure Karmzee remembers but she's not back yet. Dammnn.

SO, meanwhile, I'll just try to remember it although it's obvious I can't. How can you sing a song if you only know one damn line? I'm off. To continue my search for the song. =)

"We're standing in the eyes of the world"