Title?

And there's just so many things that I want you to know.

You know what, I think it's true.

BY the way, I had been wondering why am I involve in many scandals lately.
Maybe it's just how life is.
Oh whatever, right?

It's not like I care. Do I?
It looks like J's right about this.
I am confused.
IfIsayyeswillitend?

I can't wait for next week to be done.

Adrian.

If you hadn't already know, I LOVE WEDDINGS.
From planning to choosing wedding gowns to getting new dresses to being the bridesmaid.
The best part would be attending the wedding actually.

But, can you believe it when I say the last wedding I attended was probably like 4 years ago.

I was so damn happy that my cousin's wedding is this Saturday. 

But, you had to steal that away from me too. You're undeniably the meanest creature.
However, I will understand why I can't go. I'll just say that I have to study. *sigh* 


Anyway, I really can't wait for September. WHEEEE
A church wedding. I never attended one before so this will be my first.

One more thing,

I am married to Adrian?
Thanks, K.

Saturdays.

My Saturdays are so not sacred, D.

I went for Sports Day duty today.
If you were about to ask me how was it, just save it. It didn't went well. =(

Although Shirtliff did not win the best board, I'm still proud of Shirtliff.
Because to me, it was the best board.

Shirtliff. I am feeling very semangat-ed.

The mascots. =)


After Sports Day.




I'm proud of you. =)

I was really tired and I got a sprained ankle from all the running around today.
And, I slept with wet hair.
I'm so going to get a headache later.

Syara's Sweet 16.

I know the post is a little late but I had been really busy this few days.
Gawd, exam is in two weeks time. And, I'm screwed for Bio.

Anyway, this post is mainly on Syara. Not me.
Wait, let me go steal pictures from Syara. Just a minute.

*******

10 minutes later

Pre-party.

K and I.

Syara took this. Gawd, I look silly.



The "early people".





Try to spot me. =)



Birthday Princess Syara. And her cake.




Aww, so sweet
I almost had to do that. =)



K and I. Again.
Starbucks.



My darling brother, W. And me. =)

After that, we were all supposed to watch a movie.
But, D suggested to walk around Pavilion.
So, D, KM, W and I ended up walking around together.
Thanks W for not getting bored of us.
Even if you were bored, I know better that you wouldn't say so.

Thanks, D for the earrings. I'm so going to get you something.

The End.
I'm already planning for the next outing.

Sorry Michelle Lim for being mad at you.
*Iactuallyneedcupcakestomakemehappy*

 

Derrick's Poem.

At the crossroads,
I was forced to choose between this and that,
I could not,
It was too hard to bear,
Too difficult to even think of.

Today was the day I left you,
I broke down at the slight thought of you,
And all of a sudden,
I could not see you anymore,
My iPods.

Derrick's poem.
Dramatic?

Single Awareness Day.

The day started off with duty for primary school's sports day. I know, how anti climatic.
But, duty was actually fun because I was surrounded by people who were smaller than I am. =)
 
There were only like a few injuries today.
The most major one was a girl who fell down and fractured her knee.
AND, there was this cute little boy who got nosebleed.
He was so cute and tiny. Awww.
Oh yeah, someone actually asked me today whether our stretcher was working. 
What kind of question is that? gawd.

The cute people. =)

KM and I. The only one I got to take picture with.

*Ignore my little brother's lameness*.

BOARDS.

Isn't Shirtliff board pretty?
The swords.

Maclay.

Prouse.



Cooke.
I don't know why it's so dark.
My mom took the picture, not me.



Green.

Which is the best?
You be the judge.

One more thing.

HAPPY SINGLE AWARENESS DAY.

The Change.

Since I had been rather horrible lately, I am going to change.
Turn over a new leaf probably.
I had been letting too many people down lately.
I had been too immature.
So, I guess I'm going for a change.

If you can see through this.

Next.

J's poem. I can't resist to post this.

School leads to boredom,
Boredom leads to depression,
Depression leads to suicide,
Suicide leads to death,
Death leads to depression in parents,
In the end,
Everyone regrets.

I wonder what will happen when teacher sees this.

My Poem.

I looked up at the clear blue sky,
Only to see birds flying free,
I only wanted to escape this,
All of a sudden,
I yearn for a hug,
There you were,
Standing a few feet away from me,
I did not stop to think,
I just ran towards you,
Only to be melted in your embrace.

My favourite.

Happy Birthday.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, SYARA DARLING.

I'd been thinking about your birthday post lately.

And, I figured that I should write sixteen things on you.

Although, the next thing that's going to happen is my sister coming to me and saying it was her idea.

*The one who was there for me since Standard 1.
*The one who got into trouble with me. =) I'm sure you remember. Shhh.
*The one who knows everything about me.
*The one who is cuter then I am.
*The one who was in cheerleading in Form 1. 
*The one who joined St.John's with me but quit later on. I still wished you were in. =)
*The one who had many people crushing on her. =)
*The one who loves someone with almost the same name as mine. *winks*
*The one who is loud and noisy all the time. You never seem to be emo, right?
*The one who had the third Siberian cat in Malaysia. Wheee..
*The one who gave me Elmer baby which I treated like gold.
*The one who wants to be a music producer and had wrote many songs. I love 1,2,3,4,5 Chances.
*The one who should be in Alpha. You should come back.
*The one who has lovely Comic Sans handwriting. I love your handwriting.
*The one who loves pink and black. I know that's your signature colour combination.
*The one who loves to have salmon with bread. Omg. haha.

The list of sixteen things about you.

I miss you, Syarafina.
Oh my, I forgot one more thing.

Can I add to your list?



The one who had a creative side. Unlike me.

So, here's to you.










Once again, Happy Birthday.
Can't wait for Sunday. =)

Shirtliff.

For the first time in my life, I felt happy today. Genuinely happy today.
And, for the first time, I felt bersemangat-ed for Shirtliff.
I managed to pass the high jump today.  =)
Don't ask me how did I jump because I swear that I honestly don't know how.
It's just that I will automatically jump when I reach there. I know I'm weird.
Oh, I remembered the word.
I AM PROUD OF SHIRTLIFF AND MYSELF FOR NOT BEING USELESS. =)

Michelle, I know you don't love me as much as you love D. Boo. *sigh*
ItdoesnotmatterifIgetcupcakesornot.

I'm beginning to love RED.


 

You Found Me.

You found me
When no one else was looking
How did you know just where I would be?
Yeah, you broke through
All of my confusion
The ups and the downs
And you still didn't leave
I guess that you saw what nobody could see
You found me

Everyone, please drop everything you are doing. And, listen to this.

You Found Me by Kelly Clarkson

It reminds me of someone. Guess?

Red.

I went out as soon as I woke up this morning.

Look what I got.
It's so pretty.

Butterfly. Only not purple.



The vase. It was cut out from red paper.
Omg.





The flower.
It's so beautiful, don't you think?

I miss you so much.

Why me?

Why wouldn't you ever let me be what I want to be?
Why aren't you proud of me?
Why can't you be like others?
Why can't you ever appreciate what I'm doing?
Why can't you ever understand me?
Is it really that hard?
Why me?
Can't you even pretend that I am important to you?
I'd rather you pretend.
I'm sick of all this. 

I know I'm not supposed to live my life this way, J.
I'm sorry.
Sometimes, I just lose it.

The title of this post is so significant and typical of someone I know. 

Chinese New Year-Last Day

It's not exactly the last day of Chinese New Year but it is the last day of celebrating it for me.
I never wanted it to end.

I went out the whole day today. Open houses again.
I played with Nicholas and Michelle’s PS2. Spongebob Squarepants. Danny Phantom.
Oh, I feel like a little child again.
I came back at 12 midnight. And, I felt sick.
It was probably because I slept at 2 am the night before and woke up at 10 am.
8 hours of sleep is definitely not enough for me.

Conclusion
This had been my best Chinese New Year so far.
I will definitely miss everything especially the fact that:

1. I should not allow my emotions to get affected by others.
2. I should quit being whiny and motherly especially.
3. I should be a more caring person like W. =)
4. I should really stop daydreaming. I daydream too much.

And what comes out of me from this Chinese New Year is a whole new Kah Wai.
Who will try not to be in love with anyone for at least this year.

There are some things that you should never see,
I’ll just lock myself in there,
The only place where my tears could flow freely,
For the secret I will never tell.

I don’t even know why I wrote this. It’s probably how I really feel.

I'm going to forget you. Goodbye, memories.